i know of several examples of ones that "left the truth" for up to 20 years, only to suffer through the reinstatement process and feel like they are finally back on track.. how does this happen?.
i personally know of one example where a father of three, leaves jws, abandons wife and family, lives as a gay man then comes back 20 years later as a partaking member of the anointed..
Indoctrination digs deep, deep, deep inside and it is so very difficult to remove.
I secretly feel sorry for the ones coming back; asking out loud inside myself "WHYYY???!!! I make it a point not welcome them back, just politely greet them as time goes on and I bump into them.
SL
am i alone in this feeling?
i wish i could muster the cojones needed to tell my husband "i want a divorce, move away, not be a jw anymore!".
i find myself screaming these same words over and loud inside my mind, several times a day, and yet on the outside my actions could not be more opposed to these inner feelings.. sometimes i worry that this internal conflict will cause me to go crazy.
Oh the trolls.... The trolls.....
This WID character sure has a fine looking high horse.
My hubby and I communicate quite well, and he sure knows I don't buy the last days, no higher education, early age baptisms, and other crazy crap in this religion; what he does not imagine is that I am so far detached that I no longer wish to sell this bull to another soul.
Him, my family and even some friends are worth the sacrifice. However, some days more than others is just so difficult living a lie.
Thank you all for reassuring me that this is not my struggle alone. The time will come when I will break free. I know it will.
SL
am i alone in this feeling?
i wish i could muster the cojones needed to tell my husband "i want a divorce, move away, not be a jw anymore!".
i find myself screaming these same words over and loud inside my mind, several times a day, and yet on the outside my actions could not be more opposed to these inner feelings.. sometimes i worry that this internal conflict will cause me to go crazy.
Reading your comments makes me calm down and put things in perspective.
My husband is an awesome fellow and in my heart of hearts I feel I do not deserve him and I will probably never find another one like him. However, being the dedicated respected elder he is, it would be miserable for us both if I were to leave the religion. For one, he would lose all his privies, and I tell you he is hook line and sinker in this org; he is part of the Warwick construction big time, assemblies arrangements, one of the heavies if this region. It would hurt me emotionally to know that he lost it all because of me, so I continue to gang in there.
I am getting older, though, and this faking crap is not agreeing with me as of late.
SL
am i alone in this feeling?
i wish i could muster the cojones needed to tell my husband "i want a divorce, move away, not be a jw anymore!".
i find myself screaming these same words over and loud inside my mind, several times a day, and yet on the outside my actions could not be more opposed to these inner feelings.. sometimes i worry that this internal conflict will cause me to go crazy.
Am I alone in this feeling? I wish I could muster the cojones needed to tell my husband "I want a divorce, move away, not be a JW anymore!"
I find myself screaming these same words over and loud inside my mind, several times a day, and yet on the outside my actions could not be more opposed to these inner feelings.
Sometimes I worry that this internal conflict will cause me to go crazy.
Please tell me your experiences just to reassure me that I am not alone in feeling this way.
SL
i seldom hear of people getting df'd anymore.
years ago it seemed there were a few per year in a congregation.
In the Spanish congs where I attend, it would take an act of congress to get disfellowshipped. I mean, it is of public knowledge of young people that are of have fornicated, married ones who have committed adultery and even, yes, a man that has clearly been arrested, jailed, in the newspapers for child abuse and we are still awaiting for disfellowship announcements, and nothing comes.
Mind you that these acts have gone on for a long period of time. When I bring it up to my husband or other elders they just say that I do not know all the details of if the brothers/sisters have repented. What a crock of bull!!!
SL
first off, no, i don't have one.. but, was researching, and this article "when a loved one leaves jehovah" ( sep 1, 2006, p. 17 ), has a box "have you left jehovah.".
this box includes: "you cannot know if you will even be alive tomorrow.
(psalm 102:3; james 4:13, 14) one man who was diagnosed with a terminal illness said: this illness caught me serving jehovah full-time, with no skeletons in my closet.
Fear is the most powerful motivator.
I mean, here I am, truly a non-believer in this faith, and yet, for fear of what my life would be like without my husband, my parents, friends, relatives, I continue to comply; quite minimally, but comply nonetheless.
It is awful in the mind and psyche. Pure mental torture.
SL
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b055dttx.
the government has announced plans to make it a legal obligation for social workers, teachers and councillors to report child abuse.
the churches' child protection advisory service has called for the proposed law to apply to churches.
Only if they pass a law making it mandatory to report to the authorities sexual abuse will the WT or any other group of people turn in their own.
I can only wish it happens soon here in the USA.
SL
so i had about had enough of reading jw's excuses online about wt child abuse and the candace conti nightline abc video about her case.
this is a really deep burning topic to me as i'm sure it is to many of you.
so today the gloves came off.
I commend you for keeping your composure. Regarding child abuse, the Spanish congs seem oblivious to it, completely ignorant and unfazed by it!
SL
so i was lurking on jwtalk after trying to read the thread on there about the broadcast about the conti case...and holy moly there are some bat ish crazy talk on that site!
they also blocked the thread about the broadcast, lol!
they are scuuuuured (scared).
I can only hope that all this will lead to a policy change where the elders turn in the abusers to the local authorities as soon as the abuse is even suspected. Once if starts hurting the pocket, that is when changes happen.
Way to go Ms. Conti!!!
SL
while it may seem unlikely which of the currant governing body members do you feel would be most likely to defect?
i know it is a loaded question.. what about wealthy anthony morris iii?
or mark sanderson or geoffrey jackson?
Anyone would be stupid to abandon ship. It is such a lucrative business, where they receive the worship only Satan can dream of receiving! No way anyone in their right mind would leave that gig!!!
SL
